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The Deep

You know that praise and worship song that says…”As deep cries out to deep…We sing come Lord Jesus come…”? Well, I don’t know about you, but I had no clue what that meant.  I do that sometimes…I’ll be singing and all of a sudden realize that I don’t even know what the heck it is that I am even saying…shows where my heart is I guess…

We have so much “Christianese” ( sayings, phrases, words that are trendy around church folk and in worship songs) that half the time we don’t know the meanings of what we are saying or singing….

I found this scripture the other day…

“Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me.  By day the Lord directs his love, at night his song is with me..” Psalm 42:7,8

So there it was…and it was there my heart melted…and wanted to burst…and wanted to cry…and wanted to yell…

Have you ever just wanted to yell to God? Not in a mean way…not yelling at Him…but yelling for Him…?

Sometimes I’ve wanted to so bad…but I don’t because I don’t wanna freak anybody out.  I’ve thought…”If only I could go out into a field all by myself…or better yet…stand near a waterfall…and cry out to God so loud…”

And not that I am going through some ordeal…or needing something miraculous…or in some trouble…I just want Him.  I want Him on days when I have drifted so far away that its been weeks since I’ve spent more than five minutes with Him. I want Him on days when I am so stressed I could explode.  I want Him when my husband can only be so much. I want Him on days I wanna crawl into a ball and cry because I smell like spit up and formula and Maris just tee tee-d all over the floor. I want Him when it feels like he is so far and days when it feels like He is very near…

And all that wanting sometimes just catches up with me and grabs hold of me and shakes me up a bit…and I just wanna yell for Him and tell Him that I need Him and I love Him and I wanna know Him so much better than I do now and I’m sorry for being such a piece of crap sometimes.

So…all that to say… that I think that might be some of what that scripture is talking about…what the song is talking about…The deepest part of us calling out for Him…THE DEEP.

Some deep thoughts by Lauren…:)

Love to you!

 

 

 

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In the Fog

Every mom goes through it…those first few weeks of baby’s life…it feels a lot like if you were to run a marathon ( I have not nor will I ever run one…so I’m not real sure why I’m using that analogy) and you cross the finish line (birth of baby)…and then have to keep on jogging with little spurts of rest here and there (waking in the middle of the night, feeding every three hours, dealing with a two and a half year old sweet but head strong little girl who now decides to cut out her two hour nap in the afternoons…)

I try not to complain…but it does drain you at times…

Here are some things that are keeping me sane…

Oh Coffee. Community Chicory with Coffee Mate Lite Creamer and a whole lot of sugar. The best…

Strangely enough, at night all I wanna do is watch sports…even if I’m not actually watching…just having it on is so soothing…either baseball or, lately, watching the Celtics whoop up on the Cavaliers…

I found a salon in Fairhope that I absolutely love…they have my Tan Towels, Bare Minerals, and the other day I went in to get some face moisturizer and I saw the most beautiful shade of OPI nail polish called Shorts Story…its a beautiful pinky purple. Some pampering is definitely helpful in feeling a little normal…

And might I add the most precious husband who has been phenomenal and so loving through it all…

Have a wonderful Thursday…and dont take your full eight hours of sleep for granted!! 🙂 Much Love…

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The Sweetest Thing

” My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him…” Psalm 28:7

“Sons are a heritage from the Lord, children a reward from him.” Psalm 127:3

“Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good; his love endures forever.” Psalm 118:1

“…Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14

I am overwhelmed with thankfulness for my precious little ones…God is sooooooooooooo good! God truly is the sweetest thing…the sweetest person…to give me such sweetness and blessing. Thank you Lord. I will be thanking you forever…

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