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I sit here on my sofa exhausted…but oh so enjoying the quiet…the tv is on as we have been watching opening night of baseball.  Tim Lincecum’s hair is disgusting by the way…No offense to ole Timmy but he just grosses me out…I think it all started when, last season, the television accidentally aired him blowing his nose in his hand and then…(if you are eating something don’t read this)…then…yes…licking his hand.

I almost barfed when I saw that.

So…yes…Tim is gross and needs a haircut. Shampoo. Manners.

I thought it would be fun to list some things I am learning…fun things…serious things…

Here goes:

1.  Grace is glorious….I think maybe that might be the topic of my first book….Grace. One day, when we get to Heaven, when we realize what God has done and all we are getting that we do not deserve, we will fully experience the gloriousness and beauty of grace….It will flood us, overtake us. I have had issues with doubting my salvation, thinking too hard over it…taking the simplicity of grace and making it into something that works.  God has been reminding me of amazing grace…and not only receiving it…but giving it to others…when someone you love disappoints you, when you don’t agree with a view-point, when you are critical of church and the way they do things, when you are too hard on your children and you forget they need this thing….this beautiful, glorious thing called grace.

2. Issues regarding Hell…I have been following the Rob Bell controversy regarding his book…Love Wins…which I plan on reading.  He supposedly alludes to the view-point that once someone dies…if they go to Hell…they may be able to come back to God at a further point ( Universalism)…although I hesitate making any judgements because I have not read it.  In his promotional video for the book, he does sound super sketchy and I would not put it past him to claim that view.  What I have felt lately though is urgency.  I believe the Bible, and if the Bible is true, which again I believe it is…then a lot…a lot…a lot…A LOT of people are heading for an eternity in anguish.  This makes me ache, it is not palatable, it is not soft, it is not light.  What am I doing to evangelize the lost?  To tell them the good news of why Jesus went through so much anguish, so we would not have to?

3. I like Baseball…There is something soothing about it, and I feel it is way more sophisticated and classier than football. (in spite of Tim Lincecum…I’m sorry…I should be more graceful toward the fella)

4. I don’t like Football anymore.  The thought of hearing a highschool or college band playing their routine jingles makes me want to hurl.

5. Homeschooling….I am at a loss.  I don’t know which direction to head.  I think I just need to really amp up my praying on the matter.  Maris is increasingly showing me signs of the fact that I would rather go to a million football games and be forced to listen to the band play their jingles or sit through a country music concert…than do a lesson with her.  Laugh.  She is tough let me tell you.  At this moment,  I can’t see it working…but I can’t see her in a public school either.  God help me.

6.  Don’t worry!…At times, I have gotten really angry when I have read that or similar commands in the Bible…Do not worry…Do not be afraid…Do not fret…Do not fear….It has almost felt like some kind of cruel joke.  Like, “God! Why would you even say that when there is so much to worry over…to be fretful about?!!!!”  But, nevertheless, He…the Almighty commands it…and if I am His child and I am to BELIEVE Him and trust Him…then I need to trust that He tells us not to worry for a reason.  He’s got us babe!

7.  My precious husband has not…and probably will never………get my subtle hints at something.  Laugh.  He’s just not gonna do it…not gonna do it.  From now on I make a pledge to always just boldly state what it is I am wanting, asking, hinting at….instead of thinking he can read my mind.

8.  I really really really like theology.  And singing really loud and dancing in the car with Maris.  So sweet…

So, there’s a few things I’ve been learning about myself lately…

I hope you are having a fantastic week, sweet ones!!!!!

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So…in the past few weeks I have been thinking about birth control…laugh…

Honestly, I have been scared of having a fourth soon after little boy is born…

And I am all about children being a blessing and having a house full…but I just know I need a break for a while…and I believe God cares and sees my heart in that…

So, I decided to do a little research of my own regarding birth control, as I was considering talking to my doctor about getting on the pill.

One of my all-time favorite authors is Randy Alcorn…he is an impeccable researcher and author…he wrote an ENORMOUS book on Heaven that changed my life…so as I was looking at his website, I came accross this book…

I immediately ordered it and I read it in 3 days.  I have dealt with several emotions while reading it…guilt, saddness, shock…

I guess I didn’t think the answer was “yes” or maybe I just really didn’t want it to be.  But, in fact, the pill can cause abortions.

I’ll give you a brief overview…

We know that life begins at conception…when an egg and a sperm meet…(fertilization)…the baby then travels to the uterus to implant several days (6 I think) later…

A contraceptive is anything that prevents conception.

Well, birth control pills do that and more…

BCP’s (birth control pills) have 3 main functions:

1. inhibit ovulation (primary function)

2. thickening of the cervical mucus, which makes it harder for the sperm to travel to meet the egg

3. thinning the lining of the uterus to where it is less likely or unable to allow the newly fertilized egg (baby) to implant

The first two functions are preventing conception…the last one is aborting a baby…

In doing all of this research, Randy Alcorn contacted many leading birth control pill manufacturers to ask questions…

He talked with a man at Ortho-McNeil, one of the largest Pill manufacturers and asked questions regarding those three main functions of the pill I just listed…

“I asked him, ‘Does the Pill sometimes fail to prevent ovulation?’ He said ‘yes.’  I asked, ‘What happens then?’ He said, ‘The cervical mucus slows down the sperm.  And if that doesn’t work, if you end up with a fertilized egg (baby) ,it won’t implant and grow because of the less hospitable endometrium.” pg 49.

(which means an abortion took place)

Once again, he asked a lady at Wyeth-Ayerst, another pill manufacturer a similar question regarding the 3 ways the Pill works…

“I said, ‘Okay, let me try to summarize, and please correct me if I’m wrong.  There are three different ways the Pill operates.  #1 usually works.  When #1 fails, #2 may work.  When #1 and #2 fail, # 3 may work.  And sometimes all three fail.’ ( Because we all know the Pill is not 100 % effective.)

She said ‘Yes, that’s correct.'” pg. 47

I know that is a little confusing. I had to sit and re-read several times…but his main point, which was confirmed by the people at these places and his extensive research elsewhere was that we know for a fact birth control pills don’t work all of the time…so that has to mean that sometimes the pill fails to inhibit ovulation, fails to make the mucus thicker…(or the sperm DOES reach the egg), but the third, abortive action of the pill succeeds in creating a hostile enviroment so that the baby cannot thrive and implantation does not happen.

So, what is the big deal…why am I going on about this…?

It is a big deal because I have been on the Pill in the past and I know that millions of women are…countless Christian women are on it…and I just can’t believe we haven’t known about this sooner…

Some may say…”I don’t believe that…that can’t be true.”

Well, I would advise you to read this book and do your own research before stating what you believe and don’t believe…

As Christians, are we going to be Pro-life some of the time but not all of the time?  Regarding those babies later in pregnancy with more concern and outspokenness… or are we going to be Pro-life at all stages and do our best to avoid any risk of hurting the un-born no matter how early in pregnancy it is?

I am just still in shock over this book.

Go and order it! It was super cheap…3 dollars.  And I pray that this will come into the light and more women will gain understanding about what is really going on regarding the pill…

As for us, natural family planning as well as prayer is on the horizon!!!! Yay horray…as Maris says.

Here is a link to Randy Alcorn’s website…

Eternal Perspective Ministries

Much Love to you!!! Have a great weekend!!!

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Thank you to all who prayed! Glory be to God! He helped me go through with the “surgery.” I giggle to myself because the whole ordeal lasted all of 7 minutes and despite my fat lip all stitched up…it was so minor…nevertheless, God knows my issues and He always, ALWAYS comes to the rescue…

The whole thing reminded me, though, of something I have wanted to blog about for a while…but I just never have…

Why I love that God is a man.

Now, I know our culture has grown so politically correct and indisputably egalitarian in ways of thinking…but I highly doubt there are many of those types reading my blog…and if you are…I don’t apologize for my opinions and views…but I love you…

I seriously love that God is a man…that He is strong…fierce…almighty…a secure rock…rough…

I do believe He has many attributes of femininity and womanhood…His beauty, His tenderness, how He nurtures…

But, His masculinity draws me…it woos me…it leaves me in awe…

There are examples I’d like to point out, that lead me to this, that make me think of Him this way, examples that I believe He uses to show me something of Himself and what He is like…

The Doctor

I have been seeing Doctors lately.  I am now starting to see Dr. Shoemaker every week leading up to mr. man being born.  I remember trying to decide whether I wanted a woman doctor or a man doctor as an ob-gyn.  My practical side said woman.  It just makes sense.  But, after going through almost three births with a man doctor, I wouldn’t have it any other way.  I remember being laid up in the hospital bed, tears streaming down my hot face, as I was in horrible pain because the freakin epidural tube had a hole in it and, at 9 cm, I was NOT getting the good stuff.  I was in pain. And I needed to have Davis.  When Dr. Shoe walked in, it was like I could breathe. He knew what to do.  He was in control and calm.  This morning when I was scared to death of what taking the cyst off of my lip would be like, the oral surgeon rubbed my head and told me it was a piece of cake and to not worry.  I love the way Doctors have a confidence and assuredness that we are in good hands…strong hands…that they know what they are doing…and they can take care of it…whatever “it” may be…God is the epitome of that…He is in control and can handle whatever “it” may be…

The Mechanic

My car broke down a while back while I was picking up some food from Ivy’s in Robertsdale.  If you’ve never been to that restaurant, please go…and if you need just a quiet romantic dinner with your husband…ask for the “anniversary room” upstairs.  It is hardly ever occupied and you get this sweet little room all by yourself with dinner brought to you. It is lovely. So, as I was freaking out about my car, a guy came out of the restaurant and began trying to assess what was wrong with it.  He couldn’t figure it out, so he sent for a mechanic right down the road at Sweat Tire.  Minutes later, this rough man came walking up to the car.  I noticed his greasy black hands and dirty uniform…he looked tired from a long day of work…He quietly and quickly worked on the car and within minutes it was fixed.  I thanked him over and over and he smiled a tired wrinkly old smile and walked off.  It reminded me of God…how He is always working…although never tired…but always willing to help us with our dirty, messed up lives. 

The Husband

This one most closely reminds me of God.  And I think that is how it is meant to be.  Marriage as a picture of us and Jesus.  So many times I feel that God has used Daniel to be physically present helping me and loving me…as God is not tangibly present.  Like, when I need a hug, encouragement, a strong rebuke and correction, a kiss, patience…it is like God is loving me through Daniel. Daniel is our family’s provider and protector.  I know he would lay down his life for me.  It is such a sweet reminder of the intimacy God desires to have with us…

I could give more examples of roles that remind me of God…farmer, soldier, teacher…ect.

Thats the beautiful thing…God is so many things…has so many glorious and praise-worthy attributes…but, I simply love the manliness he exudes…He is our King, our warrior, our Father…

And our hopes, dreams, fears, anxieties…all of us…can rest in those hands for sure.

I hope your weekend is wonderful!!! Love and Blessings!

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I need prayer!

So, Here’s the deal…

I am a big baby…

But wanting to be braver! More fearless!

This may sound ridiculous and silly to you guys but I am having major anxiety over going ahead and having this thing on my lip removed by local anesthesia on Thursday morning…

Like a complete IDIOT, I went online and researched what the surgery would be like, and now I’m terrified.

I may call them tomorrow and cancel…and wait until after baby is born…

But I really don’t want to.

So, would you please pray for me. Please! Please pray that I will rely on Jesus, even in as silly and small circumstances as this, to help me go through with it!

And, I would like you all to know that I am here for you if you ever need prayer for anything!!! I think God is teaching me about prayer and the power therein. So, please never hesitate to let me know of a prayer request you may have! We, as brothers and sisters, need to lift each other up in prayer to our Father, who cares for us so deeply and strongly!

 I love you friends!

I’ll let you know how it goes!

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I used to not drink Coke.

I used to think people who drank Coke a lot were crazy because it is so bad for you…and it is empty calories when you could be drinking water…

I am so horrible…

So, Can I just say I love Coke!  Shout it from the mountain tops…”I love Coca Cola!!!!!!!!”

I drink a sip when i have been craving it…and it is like the clouds part and I hear singing and all of that little bubbly goodness just makes everything right for a moment in time.

I need to have this baby, friends.

I get way more dramatic as the days go by.

I just also want to tell you I have been asked this question way more than I expected…

“So, are ya’ll done?……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………”

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Having children. (In case you aren’t following my sporadic brain)

Um….what do you say to that?

“Yes…I like to be in control of my insides and when I have offspring…so we are getting the procedure and we are…in fact…done.”

or

“No…we plan on having another….and another…and another…we actually want a house full of children…is that alright with you? Or are we a little bit too weird for your liking?”

The truth to that strange question is… “I don’t know.”

I used to be a little perplexed by families where there was only one child or two even….For some reason I thought that it meant the parents, for whatever reason (financial..ect), didn’t trust God to provide for a larger family, or didn’t get what He meant by “be fruitful and multiply”… but I don’t have a clue what other parents or families are dealing with…or what God wants for them…I have no right to speculate…and I have been on the other end where the mother who asks me how many children I want to have seems to judge me or my faith because I don’t want more than 3 or 4…

I have come to really understand and “get” that God leads, in His sovereignty, every family that walks with Him.  Whether that means they have a house full or a house full of two children…the number of children doesn’t matter, I don’t think.  I also think that He gives us common sense to know and admit…”ok, I’m not supermom, I don’t think I could effectively manage and nurture more than three children.”

I think what is most important is that we raise the children God gives us with great care and under great spiritual guidance.

I, honestly, with how I am…with the things God is showing me…think this third may be our last…scary to think about…but, you see, I want to raise our children well…train them well…and I think, for me, the more children we could have…the harder that would get.

It’s like if we have 3…I desire to do 3 right…as opposed to having 6 and becoming an emotional and mental basket case.

Everyone is different…every family is different…and God likes different and he leads in all kinds of ways…One of the things I love about Him…

So…all that to say…whether we have 3 children and this is it…or God gives us another…or we adopt a little baby from another country…I trust Him to lead us as a family…and it feels good to be at that place.

Now, I’m going to bed…and I’m going to dream about Coca-Cola…

Much love sweet darlins!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH, and a big Happy Birthday to my best friend, Darla! I love you honey bunches!

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Some Favorites…

Things I’m loving lately…

Sidewalk chalk in the sun…

The best body moisterizer…It’s CVS brand and cheap…but oh my goodness, it leaves my skin feeling so wonderful and it is not perfum-y…the scent is very light…I loooooooooooove it….

Fresh Soy Face Cleanser and Perfume…I only buy this when we have a little extra mula being that it is expensive…but…(always a but)…it lasts a long time and it is worth it to treat yourself every now and again… 🙂

Milk…Icy cold…Yummy…Whole…Milk….

Leggings…Loved by Heidi Klum leggings at Motherhood Maternity…it feels like I’m wearing nothing…which is GREAT when you are pregnant…

This is kinda funny…You know those eye masks you can wear to go to sleep or on planes…reminds me of Breakfast at Tiffany’s…well I bought some a few months ago at Magnolia Springs Pharmacy and Gifts and they seriously help me nap so magnificently!!!…they have this lavender stuff inside which supposedly helps you relax…it blocks out all light…It is heavenly…Momma, I’m gonna get you some next time I’m there…

These sweet little flower bows for Maris I got from Hobby Lobby, of all places,…they actually dont fall out and she loves wearing them…so cute…

The best lip gloss…ever…ever…ever. I used to be a lip gloss junkie…not anymore…Please try it!!…It is cheapo Maybelline…It’s not heavy or slimy…The name is Shiny-Licious…color is berry-bella…

So, still making and experimenting with jewelry in spare time…and I love doing it…which is so odd….never would have thought it!! This is my favorite creation so far…vintage earrings I threaded with bright colors and added a teal colored drop at the bottom…

I hope your weekend is filled with some favorites!!!

Love to You!!!

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