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He Will Husband You…

 

 

I am sorry if I sound redundant concerning parenting and kids…I feel like I express to you the “hardness”, if you will, of being a mommy…

It’s just that….hmmm…

It’s really hard 🙂

The other day I was trying to pray as I was driving down the road…trying to stay focused…so many times my prayers are little sentences and concerns and requests interrupted by random thoughts or someone screaming in the back seat…

And I honestly just told God that I feel like my vision for motherhood is waning…I told Him how hard it has been…and how sometimes I just want ten minutes to stare at a wall or to go pee without someone by my side or scream a cuss word to the top of my lungs…I told Him how desperately I need His help…

How I need Him to Husband me…

I love where in Isaiah 54:5 it says, “For your Maker is your husband…the Lord Almighty is His name…”

I need Him to lovingly cover me with His feathers, and under His wings give me refuge…(Psalm 91:4)…to restore my strength and love and patience…to take my hand in His strong hand and be my rock…to husband me…

Praise Him who faithfully answers our prayers…

That day He did in numerous ways renew my strength…He put a smile on my face and joy in my heart…a renewed love for my children…

If you are feeling zapped and empty…Go to your one true Father…your one true Husband…He is the only one that can give you exactly what you need…the only One that can cover you with His soft downy feathers and lead you so tenderly…

I hope you have a marvelous weekend sweet ones!!!!

Much Love to You!!

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In the Water

I am still at a place of searching out what church should be like and operate like…I don’t know why it is taking so dern long for me to be resolved on this…but it is…and I’m glad because I really feel like this journey of doubt and questions regarding church functionality is important, I think….

But, there is this one thing I love about church…besides the fellowship with people I have come to love dearly….

And that is baptism.

Especially when it is little ones.

I’m glad and happy when adults or teenagers get dunked in the water…

But, Oh, buddy, when I see a little 6 or 7 year old step into that water…looking all terrified…or happy…and they stand there as the Pastor says a few words…and then he says…

“And, Anna, what is your profession of faith?”

And that precious little girl says so sweetly and boldly…

“Jesus Christ is Lord!”

I am telling you every single time it makes me want to bawl like a baby…and sometimes I do…

Oh my goodness how I cannot wait for the day our children accept Christ and step into those waters and say those words…I think it will be one of the happiest days of my life…and I also think I will need someone to carry me out because I will be sobbing uncontrollably…

I also just sit there and think how Jesus must love hearing it too…no matter the age or size…How it must be the sweetest thing to here His children profess their faith, love, and allegiance to Him…

Just some sweet thoughts on this Wednesday morning…

I hope you are having a wonderful week!!! Blessings!

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Fill me Up

 

I am pregnant, so I can’t drink a marvelous glass of red wine to get my nerves down…so, the next best thing…or better thing…is writing…

A favorite author of mine says that he writes to make the voices in his head stop but they never do…

Writing is like that for me….it is therapeutic…it helps me work things out, if that makes sense…

My Christmas was not how I imagined it would be. I am somewhat idealistic, in that I want it to be just so…and it is never just so is it? Never how you want it to be or picture it to be…why is that?

I am also simply…empty.

An empty cup…nothing…nada…

I need refueling…refilling…

Do you ever feel bad because you feel like you nag God? Nag him by asking for help again and again and again.  Lately, I have been asking for help over and over and sometimes I just get tired even of asking…It’s almost like I wanna say to him… ” God, I don’t want to constantly truly NEED help…so can you just change our situation…Ooooooooooor supernaturally transport me and the husband to Paris for a week where we eat luscious food, sleep all we want, and float on the Seine river at night ooooing at all of the beautiful lights…”

This is very true when it comes to being houseparents…You CONSTANTLY need help from God…always needing love to give, patience to give, kind words to give, energy to fold that last load of laundry,…

And it’s very true with parenting in general…You always need His help giving more…because little ones need so much from you…

So, on this evening, I am going to bed weary and empty and asking yet again for Him to fill me…refuel me…

I hope your Christmas was wonderful Love 🙂

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30

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